Sterilized at 27

When I was younger, I always thought of motherhood in the abstract. There would only be one baby, for I surely did not want to manage more than that. I was curious to see in which funny ways my genetics would mix with another person’s. Would this kid have my temperament? My blue eyes?  Also, I knew my parents would want a grandchild, and I knew that society would expect me to do what women have done since the dawn of human existence. I would raise this child, make sure its basic needs were met, then send it off to college at the age of 18 and be done with my parental responsibilities forever.

I was not yet 18 before I realized that life didn’t work like that. At this time, I also became fully aware that I had a choice. I did not owe it to anyone to become a mother against my will. It would be a disservice to any potential child to bring it into this world when my motivations were clearly lacking. At this point, I made the decision that I would not have children. This was done with little fanfare at the time; I just came to this conclusion and went about my life.

I was 20 the first time I asked to be permanently sterilized. I knew my chances of getting someone to say yes were nil, but I figured I would start putting it out into the universe then. I did not want to spend the rest of my fertile years on hormonal birth control and constantly panicking that one small misstep could end in pregnancy.

I asked many doctors over the following 7 years and got many variations of no until September of 2015. I made the appointment and went it with my typical skepticism. My doctor walked in the room, and I braced myself. I gave my perfected, memorized spiel and then waited for yet another no. Imagine my shock when he told me that my reasoning was sound and that he felt that it was perfectly acceptable to help a woman like me in my quest for permanent birth control.

We immediately began discussing options. I could get Essure, a coil that induces fibrosis and blocks the fallopian tubes. I immediately discounted this, as I have heard of way too many serious complications resulting from the surgery. I could also go for a standard tubal ligation, a procedure that would involve clamping the fallopian tubes, but that did not seem to have the permanency that I was looking for. He then offered a new-to-me option – a laparoscopic bilateral salpingectomy, which is the removal of the fallopian tubes. This would bring my chances of being unable to conceive naturally to very-nearly 100%. Studies have also shown that there may be a correlation between this procedure and reducing the risk of ovarian cancer, since it is believed that many forms of the cancer originate in the fallopian tubes. My mind was made up pretty quickly; I wanted the salpingectomy. We discussed pre-op appointments and counseling, set a surgery date, and officially got the ball rolling.

This is my journey through the process of getting sterilized as a childless, single, 27-year-old woman. It will not be completely comprehensive, but in an effort to be an open book and be honest about the procedure I will do my best to cover as much as possible.

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Wow, so it has been nearly one year since I updated my blog. My deepest apologies! Life got crazier and crazier, then less crazy, but my mind was constantly elsewhere.

I am back, and I want to bring this blog back to life. I have obtained my Master’s Degree in Library and Information Science since my last post, and I am working towards becoming a full-fledged librarian. I am also trying to tap into my creativity and turn some ideas into something that I would eventually feel comfortable sharing with the world.

I am now on Bloglovin’ (see the button at the top of this post, and I will try to add one to the sidebar), so feel free to follow me there!

I plan to return very soon, so be on the lookout!

Reading Woes and BzzAgent Kroger Skillet Meals

Well, all of my good intentions with regards to reading have been stomped to death by grad school. Any time I have a spare second to read, I find myself uninterested in looking at more words on pages and end up turning on Netflix and watching Doctor Who.

I did read most of my October books, but I haven’t read many for November. I read Veronica Roth’s Allegiant (liked it better than I thought I would) and Malala Yousafzai’s I Am Malala (a very tough but inspiring read). I am currently trying to finish up big school projects for the semester, so it may be a while before I return to fun reading. I am (fingers crossed!) due to graduate in May, and I look forward to being able to fully and properly attack my “To Read” pile.

In the meantime, I need to take a moment to mention how much I love BzzAgent. I have been a member for over 7 years (which really surprised me when I just went to look. It’s been a fun 7 years, BzzAgent!).

I have received loads of products to try – everything from chocolate to wine to gel shoe inserts. In particular, I get to join a lot of campaigns for Kroger store brand food, including their Private Selections brand. Through BzzAgent I have been able to try ground beef, syrup, bread crumbs, pies, cakes, cheese, pizza, jams, and much more!

How does it work? I take surveys on the BzzAgent website, and they invite me to join campaigns. They send me products to try, coupons to redeem for full-sized products, or a combination of both. I give my honest opinion on the products and get points to spend at MyPoints.

My current campaign is for Kroger Skillet Meals.



I received coupons for a free Kroger Skillet Meal, Kroger Salad Kit, and Kroger Garlic Bread. There were a lot of different skillet meals to choose from. I am never good with making a decision, so I basically got to the point where I closed my eyes and grabbed one! I ended up with garlic bread, a Caesar Salad Kit, and Sesame Chicken with Brown Rice Skillet Meal.

I am holding off on making the garlic bread since it is huge and I prepared the skillet meal just for me. The Caesar salad was lovely. I am a weirdo who does not use salad dressing at all, but I enjoyed the simplicity of a salad with just lettuce, Parmesan cheese, and croutons.


The Sesame Chicken skillet was delicious! As the instructions promised, it only took me about 10 minutes to prepare. There is a perfect amount of vegetables, chicken, and sauce that all mix together for a great flavor. My only small quibble is that I felt as thought there could be more rice. I used what I thought was a normal serving of rice for one person and ended up using about 2/3 of the rice.


Yum! Kroger Skillet Meals – Sesame Chicken with Brown Rice.

Overall, I was pleased with the skillet meal and salad. I cannot yet speak on the garlic bread, but I am sure I will be as happy with that as I am with most Kroger brand products that I have tried thanks to BzzAgent! I look forward to sharing my money-off coupons with friends and family (and maaaaybe keeping one or two for myself!).

Note: I received coupons for free Kroger products from BzzAgent in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own. 

Books for October


Good lord! Look at that giant pile of books I need to read! That is a solid mixture of ARCs received from publishers, books won from Goodreads giveaways, and a few that I purchased.

Most of them will have to wait, though. It’s October, which means I am reading all spooky books this month! (We won’t count the fabulous middle-grade ARC I read a few days ago because I couldn’t help myself.)

My love of supernatural and horror novels is a bit strange, considering I don’t believe in ghosts, but I’ve been devouring them ever since my early days of reading. I went from R.L. Stine to Christopher Pike to Stephen King and John Saul. I always tended more towards ghost stories over zombies and the various creatures of the night, but I am reading a really enjoyable zombie novel at the moment that is making me consider reading more in that category.

So, what have I read so far? I technically started reading it in September, but I finished Sarah Pinborough’s Mayhem in October. It was an incredibly interesting twist on a Jack the Ripper-esque novel.


(That does not look like the cover of the copy I had, but I don’t know whether that was to do with the fact that mine was an ARC or if there is a difference between the US and the UK version.) Click here to visit the Goodreads page for Mayhem.

I am currently reading Jamie McGuire’s Red Hill. I won this from the Goodreads giveaways. It is a zombie novel focusing on three different sets of characters that end up in the same place and have to survive a zombie apocalypse. It is probably a fairly standard zombie novel, but I am really enjoying the characters. Click here to visit the Goodreads page for Red Hill.


I have two other books that I plan on reading during October. One is Diane Setterfield’s Bellman & Black (Goodreads page here – there is currently a giveaway for this book ending 18 October) and Susan Hill’s Dolly (Goodreads page here). The first is an ARC I received, and the second is an autographed copy that I purchased at Hatchards when I was in London last December. Both look very interesting and have lovely covers!

Bellman and Black

As long as school doesn’t end up kicking my butt, I do hope to read more than these four books. I don’t have any other titles lined up, so I’d love any recommendations! Anything spooky, macabre, supernatural, or just plain creepy is welcome!